"Just Testing My Shoes"

Supposedly, a blog is a place you can post all kinds of anonymous types of stuff and share some of the truest thoughts and experiences you've had. Then again, sometimes it's best not to share all the details on the internet. So for that very reason I leave out any major specifics about my trip to San Fran except these few here: I did a thing I've always wondered about; I helped a random man change a tire on a busy city street; I met up with some family; and I met an amazing girl.

That being said I'll go into my diatribe about changing mindsets. In the last year or so, lots of major changes have happened in my life and I'll be the first to admit that I don't always handle them well. This last year has been especially tough most of all and I think I managed to experience a lapse in judgment in a general sense. I think I struggled with overdramatizing things a bit, but I also have a tendency to be too hard on myself and I genuinely was going through a lot of really, really tough stuff. So, I won't blame myself completely. But one of the amazing things about our brains is that we have to accept that evolution has dealt us a funny card. Unlike most species, we have an enormous capacity for mental growth. This capacity, though, also tends to cause a funny kind of imbalance sometimes. In those Sometimes we get overstimulated, we simply cook inside our own skulls. And that's not just people who are too complicated, everybody goes through it once in a while. Brain chemistry is a funny thing. Hopefully, and eventually, we then get perspective again. I think I've learned a good deal in the last two years and I'm happy to say I have a lot more to learn. And for the first time in a long while I'm really open to the idea of experiencing everything. And recently, I have taken this new attitude out for a test drive and, surprise surprise, it's quite sporty and fun, like a BMW 500 series. Not outlandish, but certainly pricey in the realm of the fear factor.

Life really is just way too short to allow yourself to become a zombie. Stare like a zombie, into the tv, stare like a junkie. no no no, ya gotta keep livin. Oh and I'll be seeing Tool this friday thanks to my dear sweet friend Mira. The seats are unbelievable.
margie took this last night. Apparently this is a "Pete" face